Deeply Hurt

I am badly hurt, 25 February 2010 was the unluckiest day of my life. I lost US$400.00 and was double charged by the broker company. The bank and broker company tried their best to console me with their best words they can offer and told me to rest assured that the double charge issue will be solved promptly.

I wonder how many of you people are still reading my blog? My blog is always full of rubbish, talking about my shit ideals and one day they are going to come true. I bet no one even bothers reading this pathetic blog which only spout useless ideals which never came true and complaints and sad stories like this one I am writing right now. I really wonder why everyone dislike me? Am I too over powered?

I cannot sleep right now, problems for me still unsolved and I had no one to talk with at this late hours. I feel like crying out loud, crying and shouting why did such horrible things happen to me? Really what is wrong in this world? Is trust a bad thing? To tell you the truth, always in my heart the word "Trust" meant "Trustworthy". Never had I do anything bad to betray the trust between my friends and customers.

But why do they betray me like a new born baby. I put my trust on you, and now you betrayed me back. I do not wish to bring up things which happened in the past as it will hurt me deeper. I am pushed right down to the ocean floor right now and who would save this drowning man?

Please whom ever you are, God, Jesus or anything, help me, I really need someone to talk with everyday about my career and how I success in making a deal and one whom can really correct me when I am going towards the wrong path.

The Sam you see previously is now drowned! Help me please someone...

I am a success and failure now what you don't know about me is written here right now.

I am a failure, I suck, My ideals were all shit that never comes true one day, I suck in Forex Trading and lost money in it, I fail in BGR relationships because those girls I encounter were targeting on my fortune only. I am a loner, I only talk to customers on dealerships, I charge every amount that I consult, I hate people whom spent a fortune on education using their parents hard earned cash. I feel like taking all money loaners down. And that is enough for me.

During my secondary school, I was bullied and retained in Secondary 3 again. When I was secondary 4 I had only 2 best friends and when I reached ITE, I had a best friend which eventually betrayed me. Now I am a sadist whom is mad in make money. I talk to customers only, and hate people whom consulted me for free.

I tell you, my life is hard, although I managed to fucking get myself up many times but these chances were going down day by day. Who knows I might not get myself up after being struck by bad karma. No one loves me, everyone hates what I am doing, they just do not want to say it out, they love to brag about it and stay close to me to think that they will be successful like me. But the truth is every successful man fails repeatedly and there is no such perfect successful story out in this world.

Sad isn't, failed relationships, bad luck, retribution, karma everything had struck on me on the 25 February 2010. I lost a lot of my hard earned money on this day too.

The really cure that I need now is that someone to talk to me, comfort me, tell me not to give up, go for your goals, showcase your full force, be a man, get up when you fall, run when you are tired.

I just feel like ending this whole thing and be a normal person.

I am a deeply hurt person right now

Leave me, if you want to

Because, I do not want to hurt others

If I were to get back to my feet again, I would be a totally different person, and a very straight person

What's done is done on the 25 February 2010

1. I lost US$100.00 in Forex Trades
2. I deposit US$300.00 in my Forex account and was double charged
3. US$300.00 is under settlement right now. Have to wait for my account manager to respond
4. US$100.00 of my mum investment is going to be lost soon

A total of US$800.00 (SG$1136.00) problems to be solved now.

When I cry for you, would you know how much I care and want for you?
Those stabs you gave me, they were deep and never heals
If I were to give anyone a chance, would it be my last chance?

Anyone out there talk to me please!

One more thing, Striving to success series will be discontinued.

Does my life end here?

Mr Sam Onn
Mail: sam.onn.shadows@gmail.com
MSN: Boss@Funzshop.com


Who will talk to me? Lonely world~